Good Bye Summer 2011 from Kevin Mesch

So as last 24 Hours of my summer arrive I wanted to take a moment to say how much I've changed. 2 years ago I was so fucked up. I didn't care about anything because I thought that everything else was so lame. Now since I've been through pure hell. Losing my brother to cancer, he was in the hospital for 6 months. Literally 6 months. I'm not counting the 18 hours he was home in the middle of march. God I actually though It would be normal. When he relapsed I thought it would be just like that last time. Yeah this is going to be crappy but were going to make it out even stronger than last time. So this summer I took the opertunity to just be a kid for the first time in my entire life. l've had to be strong for the last 8 years so the whole world knows everything is okay. While underneath I was screaming. Faking it so so well that I was convinced that god himself can't tell. Which I knew I knew he knew I was okay. So with that I hated god for the last 6 years. Because I was like my life is jacked. Esspecially the past 6 months I was furious with him. All these people in the world who have perfwct lives and have no scares on their lives telling how they got there. I was jealous. I wanted to start over. This summer I was a kid, and I am a firm believer in god. I always believed him but I was just mad at him. Now my goal this school year is to be more out going and stay on top of things at school. So now that I have it out. My Senio12 Year of High School. May. Start!